Goal setting has always been scary for me. In the past, I've either hit my goals for a very brief period, or I've not hit them at all. Fear of failure makes me loathe to try goal setting again. But, I know that it gives me something to aim towards and I know the sense of accomplishment I felt when I reached the 199, 190 and 189 goals.
So, I'm changing my ticker.
The last time I lost weight (2 years ago) I got to 152 lbs. I was trying so hard to see the 140's. So, my goal is 149. When I get to 149, I will re-assess my goal down to the 130. But for now, instead of focusing on all that distance between 130-149, I'm going to just focus on 149.
My weight loss seems to come in spurts. I won't lose anything for about a week or so, then I lose a few pounds. I'm not going to stress it. I wish it would come off more consistently but it doesn't, so it doesn't. This isn't a race.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Thursday, June 30, 2011
heavenly smells
My favourite smell in the whole wide world is baking bread.
Every day I take the commuter train to work and I walk through pedways to get to my office tower downtown. I have to pass a store on my way called "Press'd" that sells sandwiches and soups. My salivary glands are now relating where I am in the pedways like Pavlov's dog does to the bell. I get to a certain point in the pedway and even though I can't yet smell the fresh baking breads, my mouth is suddenly salivating at the soon to smell yummy goodness.
It's a bittersweet position since I don't eat that stuff anymore and frankly really... I physically couldn't. I LOVE the smell though and savour it every single morning.
ahhhh
Every day I take the commuter train to work and I walk through pedways to get to my office tower downtown. I have to pass a store on my way called "Press'd" that sells sandwiches and soups. My salivary glands are now relating where I am in the pedways like Pavlov's dog does to the bell. I get to a certain point in the pedway and even though I can't yet smell the fresh baking breads, my mouth is suddenly salivating at the soon to smell yummy goodness.
It's a bittersweet position since I don't eat that stuff anymore and frankly really... I physically couldn't. I LOVE the smell though and savour it every single morning.
ahhhh
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
Friend Makin Monday!
List a few common items that can always be found in your fridge.
Source yogurt, no sugar added applesauce, fresh strawberries, soy milk, marble cheese strings, low fat cream cheese, cucumber and eggs
What kind of milk do you drink?
Soy, usually the lower fat version. Hubby buys it and I put it in my morning protein shake for that extra calories/protein
Do you prefer fresh or frozen vegetables?
Fresh veggies... steamed or grilled. Bestest way to cook them!
What do you currently have to drink in the fridge?
Water and soy milk. Hubby keeps Coke Zero, vitamin water, V8 and beer in the other fridge in his office
How often do you clean out your refrigerator?
Every week. The night before garbage day :D
What’s the healthiest thing in it right now?
Tomatoes, carrots, lettuce
What’s the most unhealthy thing in it right now?
There's a canolli in the freezer waiting for hubby to eat it :D
What do you wish you had in it that you don’t have now?
blueberries!
How often do you shop for groceries?
Rarely, I have a house husband (aka House B!%C&) for that. He does nearly all of the shopping
What’s the weirdest thing in your fridge right now?
Nothing, its pretty empty actually. Hubby has been out of town for 11 days and I haven't bothered to shop while he's been away!
Now it’s your turn! Don’t forget to answer the questions and come back to post a link in the comments section!
Happy Monday!
Source yogurt, no sugar added applesauce, fresh strawberries, soy milk, marble cheese strings, low fat cream cheese, cucumber and eggs
What kind of milk do you drink?
Soy, usually the lower fat version. Hubby buys it and I put it in my morning protein shake for that extra calories/protein
Do you prefer fresh or frozen vegetables?
Fresh veggies... steamed or grilled. Bestest way to cook them!
What do you currently have to drink in the fridge?
Water and soy milk. Hubby keeps Coke Zero, vitamin water, V8 and beer in the other fridge in his office
How often do you clean out your refrigerator?
Every week. The night before garbage day :D
What’s the healthiest thing in it right now?
Tomatoes, carrots, lettuce
What’s the most unhealthy thing in it right now?
There's a canolli in the freezer waiting for hubby to eat it :D
What do you wish you had in it that you don’t have now?
blueberries!
How often do you shop for groceries?
Rarely, I have a house husband (aka House B!%C&) for that. He does nearly all of the shopping
What’s the weirdest thing in your fridge right now?
Nothing, its pretty empty actually. Hubby has been out of town for 11 days and I haven't bothered to shop while he's been away!
Now it’s your turn! Don’t forget to answer the questions and come back to post a link in the comments section!
Happy Monday!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Vanity sizing
I loves it.
I went clothes shopping today. For the first time since I regained all this weight. I lived in sweatpants at home in the middle of a very deep depression the entire time I regained it so I didn't need work clothes.... now as I lose it, I need some as my current clothes are starting to fall off and hang on me in a very unflattering way.
I just have to express my absolute love for vanity sizing. I'm FULLY aware that my current size does NOT put me in a size 14 and a Large (not XL! yay) but to hell with it... it feels fantastic to see that size on the back of my pants. I don't care if its unrealistic and I'm fooling myself. Whatever works! Hell, I've been stuffed into Size 6 Lu Lu Lemon pants for the last year so size 14 is actually closer to the truth!
Tomorrow is my 2 month surgiversary. Time for more measurements!!!
I went clothes shopping today. For the first time since I regained all this weight. I lived in sweatpants at home in the middle of a very deep depression the entire time I regained it so I didn't need work clothes.... now as I lose it, I need some as my current clothes are starting to fall off and hang on me in a very unflattering way.
I just have to express my absolute love for vanity sizing. I'm FULLY aware that my current size does NOT put me in a size 14 and a Large (not XL! yay) but to hell with it... it feels fantastic to see that size on the back of my pants. I don't care if its unrealistic and I'm fooling myself. Whatever works! Hell, I've been stuffed into Size 6 Lu Lu Lemon pants for the last year so size 14 is actually closer to the truth!
Tomorrow is my 2 month surgiversary. Time for more measurements!!!
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Wahoooo GOAL MET!
I saw 189 on the scale this morning! I wanted to get to the 180's by the time hubby came home and I did! I didn't do anything different except try harder to get my water in and here I am. I'm so happy to see those numbers!
yippee!!
yippee!!
Friday, June 24, 2011
Memory/concentration/focus
I haz none.
In the past couple of weeks I've been really struggling to maintain my mental faculties. I'm pretty new in my department and I have a very technical job, it scares me because I find my retention really poor lately. It's as though my brain just stops before it even starts thinking. It starts at " I know I need to think about this..." and that's as far as it goes. I can't even get to the stage where I can't remember.... hell I can't even START thinking about remembering!
I'm afraid I'm going to burn the house down. Driving even makes me nervous as my attention span is really poor right now. I'm sure that its related to my diet and that I must be deficient in some things. I just wish I knew what it was and what I could do to change this.
In the past couple of weeks I've been really struggling to maintain my mental faculties. I'm pretty new in my department and I have a very technical job, it scares me because I find my retention really poor lately. It's as though my brain just stops before it even starts thinking. It starts at " I know I need to think about this..." and that's as far as it goes. I can't even get to the stage where I can't remember.... hell I can't even START thinking about remembering!
I'm afraid I'm going to burn the house down. Driving even makes me nervous as my attention span is really poor right now. I'm sure that its related to my diet and that I must be deficient in some things. I just wish I knew what it was and what I could do to change this.
Weight Wise Module 1
I attended the first Weight Wise class (Getting Started - Planning for Success) last night.
See http://www.albertahealthservices.ca/ps-ww-module-tracker.pdf
The very first thing they mention before they start is how this program is NOT for bariatric patients. I disagree somewhat. I think that the parts that mention learning how to recognize barriers, encouraging motivation, etc ARE relevant regardless of whether you've had the surgery already or not. Of course, the point of this program is to potentially move people through it to a possible surgery at the end. The whole reason *I* want to be part of this program is that it offers free weight management sessions with a dietician and psychologist. So to get those free sessions, I have to do 4 total modules and take some of the stuff with a grain of salt.
Next session is July 7 for Module 2 : Nutrition (Finding Balance) - The role of calories in weight management. I might not attend this one as calories aren't something that I'm really worrying about at this point. I can't decide. Then I have the next one on Aug 4, Module 3: Managing hunger and appetite. Another that may not be useful for me since I have neither anymore. Although head hunger I DO have so meh... not sure.
I WANT to do Modules 7 & 9, as well as Craving Change. So I might just bail on the next 2 coming up this summer and then do those 3 when they're offered.
See http://www.albertahealthservices.ca/ps-ww-module-tracker.pdf
The very first thing they mention before they start is how this program is NOT for bariatric patients. I disagree somewhat. I think that the parts that mention learning how to recognize barriers, encouraging motivation, etc ARE relevant regardless of whether you've had the surgery already or not. Of course, the point of this program is to potentially move people through it to a possible surgery at the end. The whole reason *I* want to be part of this program is that it offers free weight management sessions with a dietician and psychologist. So to get those free sessions, I have to do 4 total modules and take some of the stuff with a grain of salt.
Next session is July 7 for Module 2 : Nutrition (Finding Balance) - The role of calories in weight management. I might not attend this one as calories aren't something that I'm really worrying about at this point. I can't decide. Then I have the next one on Aug 4, Module 3: Managing hunger and appetite. Another that may not be useful for me since I have neither anymore. Although head hunger I DO have so meh... not sure.
I WANT to do Modules 7 & 9, as well as Craving Change. So I might just bail on the next 2 coming up this summer and then do those 3 when they're offered.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Water
I'm still really having difficulty getting in my water. Honestly, I try but I feel like I'm drowning in water sometimes. I am so busy sometimes at work that I barely have a chance to pee let alone get my sips in.
I drink 1 -1.5 cups mixed with my protein shake in the morning, 1/2 cup of coffee, 1 cup water in the afternoon.... and that's about it. I'm really not good at this part. :( I LIKE water, I just can't take in the amounts that I used to be able to so I find it harder to get in my daily amounts.
Any tricks?
I drink 1 -1.5 cups mixed with my protein shake in the morning, 1/2 cup of coffee, 1 cup water in the afternoon.... and that's about it. I'm really not good at this part. :( I LIKE water, I just can't take in the amounts that I used to be able to so I find it harder to get in my daily amounts.
Any tricks?
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Mindful eating x10000000000
Sometimes I miss being able to eat the way I used to. Eating now has a whole new process and it requires full time attention or I risk getting physically ill. It's unpretty. Tonight a single strawberry was my undoing. I only had the strawberry but apparently I didn't chew it well enough because it easily made a re-appearance.
bleh!
bleh!
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