GREAT NEWS!! For those that didn't see my FB... I just had new blood work done last week.
My iron went from 17 to 47 with the injections! WOOT... Doc still wants it over 50 but this is awesomeI can definitely tell the injections were working, my energy has increased tenfold and WAY less dizzy issues
My Vit D is still lower than she wants but everyone in Canada is low in Vit D so I just have to double my Vit D dose and I should get that up easy.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
New bloodwork results!
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Step ONE to our MOVE!!
Tomorrow we come to Vancouver to find a place to live.
I'm freakin out.
Pray we find a place tolove live....
I'm freakin out.
Pray we find a place to
Friday, April 27, 2012
1 YEAR!!
TODAY IS MY SLEEVE-VERSARY!!!
1 year I've been rocking my sleeve and regained my love and zest of life! I feel amazing!
My highest weight ever was 245 (around 2004), surgery day I was 223 lbs.
Today I am 132 lbs and living the maintain lifestyle!
My single regret about my surgery?
NOT DOING THIS SOONER!!!!
If you're thinking about this surgery, do your research, ask questions, send me a message.... I will help any way I can! This is about YOU, YOUR HEALTH, and the rest of your life. Which will be longer because you will be healthier without that extra weight on your body! Do it!!
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
I'm feeling a little melancholy tonight
I'm planning our going away/goodbye party. I'm watching people around me here experience exciting new challenges, my best friend's daughter growing up, my brothers, my sisters.... I think about all of them and how much I'm going to miss in their lives. I know that we don't see each other here as much as we should/I'd like to... but now that I'm leaving this province it just feels so very final. I know that this move is what's best for us (Hubby and I) and our lives and we're going to have a great life but every now and then nostalgia hits me and I'm drawn into a feeling of loss and sadness for what I will miss not living in the city I was born in. That I grew up in. That everyone I know and love is in. And that I KNOW inside and out.
I'm nervous and scared and excited and sad and worried all at once. What a range of emotions I'm experiencing as the date grows near. A month... a mere month until we are literally on our own. Just the 2 of us (and Bailie) .... in a city we have only visited a few times, in an office I've never been in, with people I don't know, in a position I'm scared the shit out of.
Tell me I can do this. Even if I don't believe you. Tell me I can because tonight, I'm FREAKING THE HECK OUT.
Much of it likely is because hubby is really being an ass tonight and its making me lonely for the life I'll be missing. *sigh*
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Latest.... April 2012
I know I haven't been around in the last couple of weeks. Sorry :(((((( (my version of a HUGE sad face)
Things that are new... lets see....
I've really been working out the last few weeks and I'm feeling really good and strong these days. My iron issues may be working themselves out... I still have another set of bloodwork to get through but its looking better. I feel more energetic in the last few weeks since I've finished my iron injections and been taking Cyklokapron during my cycle to reduce the bleeding during my cycle. I'm hoping they're doing the trick as I really feel that this isn't something that is going to get better with high iron foods.
Time is ticking by with our move to BC. We're about a month away now. Thankfully we've managed to unload one of our homes by doing rent to own and we're hoping for an offer to purchase on the other this week coming up. I'm a little stressed as I've accepted the Manager position in the branch in Vancouver and I'm nervous about the changes. A new home, new province, new branch.. and new job. It's a lot!
I've lost another pound in the last few weeks. I'm ok with it as it's only a pound and its happened in the same amount of time that I've been working out so its not that bad. I'm still hoping I don't reach the 120's though. I'm currently at 132 lbs.
Lastly....
I seriously love www.bariatrictv.com
They are hilarious and informative!! Check it out!
Things that are new... lets see....
I've really been working out the last few weeks and I'm feeling really good and strong these days. My iron issues may be working themselves out... I still have another set of bloodwork to get through but its looking better. I feel more energetic in the last few weeks since I've finished my iron injections and been taking Cyklokapron during my cycle to reduce the bleeding during my cycle. I'm hoping they're doing the trick as I really feel that this isn't something that is going to get better with high iron foods.
Time is ticking by with our move to BC. We're about a month away now. Thankfully we've managed to unload one of our homes by doing rent to own and we're hoping for an offer to purchase on the other this week coming up. I'm a little stressed as I've accepted the Manager position in the branch in Vancouver and I'm nervous about the changes. A new home, new province, new branch.. and new job. It's a lot!
I've lost another pound in the last few weeks. I'm ok with it as it's only a pound and its happened in the same amount of time that I've been working out so its not that bad. I'm still hoping I don't reach the 120's though. I'm currently at 132 lbs.
Lastly....
I seriously love www.bariatrictv.com
They are hilarious and informative!! Check it out!
Sunday, April 8, 2012
WLS Do's and Don'ts
borrowed from LilMissDiva from VST
DO remove the word ONLY from your vocabulary. Ex: I’ve ONLY lost 10 Lbs in 2 weeks… Now let’s look at this again without the word ONLY: I’ve lost 10 Lbs in 2 weeks!! See what I mean? Perception is reality folks!!
DON’T assume you’ll never eat all of your favorite foods again. This is just an excuse your brain has designed to allow you to indulge. You WILL eat all your favorites again someday, just much less but find it to me more enjoyable. Which leads directly into the next:
DON’T do the “last meal” syndrome. You will only sabotage your weight loss you might have pre-surgery or set you back further from your ultimate goal post-op. This surgery is very serious and is for the serious minded. Use this time wisely to get the feeling of how life might be like post op.
DO learn all of the rules pre-op that you will endure post-op. Such as, no drinking with meals, using smaller utensils and plates, engaging in some type of workout routine, limiting your sugar and sodium intake, joining as many WLS support groups as you can.
DO celebrate every single pound lost! Imagine one pound of butter. Yeah… that’s gone from your body forever. It is noteworthy and worth every bit of a pat on the back as any others that may go along with it.
DON’T compare your successes and losses to others. Chances are very high that you will only come out on the short end and only find yourself disappointed. Everyone’s journeys are their own…
DO keep track of your losses in many different ways than just the scale! Examples:
DO keep one set of your largest clothes you’ve ever worn. Make it a point to try them on, especially when you’re having a down moment. You will find this will really pick up your spirits! This is a real rollercoaster of a ride, and anything that will keep you positive is what you should do!
DON'T keep any other fat clothes around. Get rid of them ASAP. You're never going to fit them again, right? So... off to donations they go.
DO take photos of yourself just before your surgery. Keep them close. Again, having a bad day? Look at them and compare them. As a matter of fact, take photos of yourself often. You will also find that the more you lose, the more you will want to take pictures. Nothing wrong with that!!! That goes with celebrating your losses. ;-)
DO take measurements of yourself often. Keeping track of all your inches lost will really keep you on the right track when your scale is being stubborn!!
DO reward yourself every time you hit a mini goal. Make some more worthy than others. I like to go shopping when I hit a goal, it is my favorite thing to do now.
DON’T let the scale define you. Great majority of us will endure many fluctuations and stalls in this journey. It is what it is… patience is the key here. Meditate and envision yourself months down the road at your goal. Smile, then move on!!
DO find out about measuring body fat! It’s more than just weight loss, FAT LOSS is the real goal here. Keep in mind that the BMI scale is greatly inaccurate and most Health Studies do prove this. According to the American Council on Exercise (ACE) our body fat % ranges should be average: 25-31% for Women and 18-24% for men. Any higher is considered obese. However it does go more in depth, according to ages and more. Everyone has different genetic make ups, frame sizes and fitness levels... even a different ethnicity can post differences.
DO have many goals in sight. Having only one, especially a simple weight goal you will find can be difficult. Have many MINI goals along your journey, and more than just ones that involve the scale. Such as, clothing size goals, body fat% goals, fitness or workout goals, dietary goals, etc…
DO challenge yourself always!! Whether it’s a global challenge with others, or personal challenges... It will keep you motivated and always willing to go further than you ever thought you could!
DO have a mentor! Find someone that you can trust and confide in, and that you know has “been there”. Preferably someone you know in person. You will find many folks in your life who have been there, for obesity is worldwide now and there are so many who have been able to defeat this demon. It’s not easy! It quite literally is the toughest feat I’ve ever had to endure. I can say this too, my job will never be done. This is for life!
And finally…
DON’T ever beat yourself up! We all make mistakes, and dare I say not one person on this Earth is perfect. I try hard to be, no doubt! I always admit that I’m a perfectionist – but I’m far from perfect. I just try to be… The only thing you can do is pick yourself up, give yourself a pep talk, perhaps contact your mentor for reassurance and move on!!! Again, this is for life. Every day you wake up is a second chance.
DO look for solutions to your problems. Otherwise they will just become excuses.
DON’T EVER GIVE UP. I don’t think any explanation is necessary here.
Good luck to all of you. This journey is a tough one, but if you are here, then you believed in yourself enough to give yourself the life you’ve always dreamed of. YOU WILL BE successful. Always keep that in mind.
Add-ons by other experienced sleevers:
DO keep a list of NSV (Non scale victories) to reflect on when times are getting hard. Can you walk up 2 extra flights of stairs before getting winded? Cross your legs?" and
"DO NOT be afraid to change things if they aren't working. Stalls happen even gains happen. If you are on a long stall look at your eating and decided if changes need to be made. Utilize your tool!" -- Southern Sleever
DO: Keep a food diary of what you eat and drink. This is a great learning tool as to which foods have what amounts of fat, protein and carbs that add up to your daily intake goals. There are many ways to diary your food - from old fashioned pen and notebook to many options via smartphone apps. Keeping one is the important thing - however is right for you. I use mine now to look back for meal ideas when I hit a blank as to what to prepare for a day or a week.
DO: Realize this is not a diet to be followed for a while then set aside. This is a permanent lifestyle change. Yes, the amount of food you eat will increase as time passes, but your relationship with food will be forever altered. How you celebrate your joys, successes and holidays will be different. How you mourn your sorrows will be different. Some people need outside help to get through the sometimes overwhelming mental changes this process brings. If you need help with this part of the deal- reach out and get it. -- SKCUNNINGHAM
DO roll with the punches!! -- fern
DO remove the word ONLY from your vocabulary. Ex: I’ve ONLY lost 10 Lbs in 2 weeks… Now let’s look at this again without the word ONLY: I’ve lost 10 Lbs in 2 weeks!! See what I mean? Perception is reality folks!!
DON’T assume you’ll never eat all of your favorite foods again. This is just an excuse your brain has designed to allow you to indulge. You WILL eat all your favorites again someday, just much less but find it to me more enjoyable. Which leads directly into the next:
DON’T do the “last meal” syndrome. You will only sabotage your weight loss you might have pre-surgery or set you back further from your ultimate goal post-op. This surgery is very serious and is for the serious minded. Use this time wisely to get the feeling of how life might be like post op.
DO learn all of the rules pre-op that you will endure post-op. Such as, no drinking with meals, using smaller utensils and plates, engaging in some type of workout routine, limiting your sugar and sodium intake, joining as many WLS support groups as you can.
DO celebrate every single pound lost! Imagine one pound of butter. Yeah… that’s gone from your body forever. It is noteworthy and worth every bit of a pat on the back as any others that may go along with it.
DON’T compare your successes and losses to others. Chances are very high that you will only come out on the short end and only find yourself disappointed. Everyone’s journeys are their own…
DO keep track of your losses in many different ways than just the scale! Examples:
DO keep one set of your largest clothes you’ve ever worn. Make it a point to try them on, especially when you’re having a down moment. You will find this will really pick up your spirits! This is a real rollercoaster of a ride, and anything that will keep you positive is what you should do!
DON'T keep any other fat clothes around. Get rid of them ASAP. You're never going to fit them again, right? So... off to donations they go.
DO take photos of yourself just before your surgery. Keep them close. Again, having a bad day? Look at them and compare them. As a matter of fact, take photos of yourself often. You will also find that the more you lose, the more you will want to take pictures. Nothing wrong with that!!! That goes with celebrating your losses. ;-)
DO take measurements of yourself often. Keeping track of all your inches lost will really keep you on the right track when your scale is being stubborn!!
DO reward yourself every time you hit a mini goal. Make some more worthy than others. I like to go shopping when I hit a goal, it is my favorite thing to do now.
DON’T let the scale define you. Great majority of us will endure many fluctuations and stalls in this journey. It is what it is… patience is the key here. Meditate and envision yourself months down the road at your goal. Smile, then move on!!
DO find out about measuring body fat! It’s more than just weight loss, FAT LOSS is the real goal here. Keep in mind that the BMI scale is greatly inaccurate and most Health Studies do prove this. According to the American Council on Exercise (ACE) our body fat % ranges should be average: 25-31% for Women and 18-24% for men. Any higher is considered obese. However it does go more in depth, according to ages and more. Everyone has different genetic make ups, frame sizes and fitness levels... even a different ethnicity can post differences.
DO have many goals in sight. Having only one, especially a simple weight goal you will find can be difficult. Have many MINI goals along your journey, and more than just ones that involve the scale. Such as, clothing size goals, body fat% goals, fitness or workout goals, dietary goals, etc…
DO challenge yourself always!! Whether it’s a global challenge with others, or personal challenges... It will keep you motivated and always willing to go further than you ever thought you could!
DO have a mentor! Find someone that you can trust and confide in, and that you know has “been there”. Preferably someone you know in person. You will find many folks in your life who have been there, for obesity is worldwide now and there are so many who have been able to defeat this demon. It’s not easy! It quite literally is the toughest feat I’ve ever had to endure. I can say this too, my job will never be done. This is for life!
And finally…
DON’T ever beat yourself up! We all make mistakes, and dare I say not one person on this Earth is perfect. I try hard to be, no doubt! I always admit that I’m a perfectionist – but I’m far from perfect. I just try to be… The only thing you can do is pick yourself up, give yourself a pep talk, perhaps contact your mentor for reassurance and move on!!! Again, this is for life. Every day you wake up is a second chance.
DO look for solutions to your problems. Otherwise they will just become excuses.
DON’T EVER GIVE UP. I don’t think any explanation is necessary here.
Good luck to all of you. This journey is a tough one, but if you are here, then you believed in yourself enough to give yourself the life you’ve always dreamed of. YOU WILL BE successful. Always keep that in mind.
Add-ons by other experienced sleevers:
DO keep a list of NSV (Non scale victories) to reflect on when times are getting hard. Can you walk up 2 extra flights of stairs before getting winded? Cross your legs?" and
"DO NOT be afraid to change things if they aren't working. Stalls happen even gains happen. If you are on a long stall look at your eating and decided if changes need to be made. Utilize your tool!" -- Southern Sleever
DO: Keep a food diary of what you eat and drink. This is a great learning tool as to which foods have what amounts of fat, protein and carbs that add up to your daily intake goals. There are many ways to diary your food - from old fashioned pen and notebook to many options via smartphone apps. Keeping one is the important thing - however is right for you. I use mine now to look back for meal ideas when I hit a blank as to what to prepare for a day or a week.
DO: Realize this is not a diet to be followed for a while then set aside. This is a permanent lifestyle change. Yes, the amount of food you eat will increase as time passes, but your relationship with food will be forever altered. How you celebrate your joys, successes and holidays will be different. How you mourn your sorrows will be different. Some people need outside help to get through the sometimes overwhelming mental changes this process brings. If you need help with this part of the deal- reach out and get it. -- SKCUNNINGHAM
DO roll with the punches!! -- fern
This site makes me sad
http://www.whyeat.net/forum/threads/7432-How-long-do-you-have-to-throw-up-after-a-meal
I found it because hubby has mentioned that 's been feeling the need to vomit after meals and its been happening daily. It's not that he wants to, he just suddenly gets nausea and goes running. So I googled "throwing up after eating" and found myself on this site...
I just want to hug all these girls (mostly females I'm willing to bet) and tell them that they're beautiful and not to fear food.
http://www.whyeat.net/forum/threads/7432-How-long-do-you-have-to-throw-up-after-a-meal
I found it because hubby has mentioned that 's been feeling the need to vomit after meals and its been happening daily. It's not that he wants to, he just suddenly gets nausea and goes running. So I googled "throwing up after eating" and found myself on this site...
I just want to hug all these girls (mostly females I'm willing to bet) and tell them that they're beautiful and not to fear food.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Had a pretty good day all things considered. I slept late, lazed around a little bit and then went out and got some flowers and went to the cemetery. It was good, I feel very peaceful after spending some time there. Afterwards I went and got a lottery ticket ... fingers crossed!!
Came home and spent some time doing computer stuff with my bro, tried on some new threads I picked up yesterday and then had a good workout with Bob and Biggest Loser on the Kinect. Feeling good
Only minus to the day... I ate too fast and ended up worshipping the porcelain god. Haven't done that in awhile.... my bad.
Mini fashion show below :)
Came home and spent some time doing computer stuff with my bro, tried on some new threads I picked up yesterday and then had a good workout with Bob and Biggest Loser on the Kinect. Feeling good
Only minus to the day... I ate too fast and ended up worshipping the porcelain god. Haven't done that in awhile.... my bad.
Mini fashion show below :)
A serious moment and remembrance
April 6, 1992 I lost my younger brother (middle child) to suicide. He ended his life over the Easter long weekend and I was the one that found him the morning we were all going back to school.
I was 15 years old and he was 13.
It was the worst day of my life and I know that with certainty. I honestly cannot imagine something worse than that day. I lost my mom only a few years later where I, as the eldest, had to make the decision to turn off machines and chose to be there when it happened... that wasn't a good choice, it was equally traumatizing and will remain in my memory almost as clearly as the day we lost my brother.
Today is Shawn Michael Massey's 20th year without his family that loved him deeply. I decided to post this because I felt the strong need to remember him this year since I'll be leaving Alberta and will have little chance to visit his grave site after this anniversary. Also I posted it to remember the pain I felt and have continued to feel in the 20 years since. I've had nightmares of that day for the last 20 years and I wish I could let them go. It's very hard not to remember things etched in your memory with dynamite. Paint or wallpaper... or denial.... they're all easier to remove.
To my little brother that would be 33 years old today if he had still been here. I love you. I always will. Take care of mom.
I don't normally post stuff quite so intimate, private or personal but this is important and I want it to be logged on the internet for all time because my family is my family for all time. I still count my brother among my siblings even though he's no longer of this earth. He is the only thing that makes me want to believe in a higher power. And in that higher power, I pray hard... constantly... for leniency and forgiveness in this choice he made.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
WLS musings
I'm having some difficulty on the boards of late. I see these posts asking about making choices post op (early post op especially) for different foods they "think" they can have and if its ok. For some reason I think that if they get the "approval" from their anonymous online peers then it must be ok and then they have someone to blame other than themselves when it all goes wrong
All I have been able to reply is basically this:
Do you want to lose weight?
Do you want to keep it off?
Do you want to change your relationship with food?
Do you want to be posting about stalls (or worse complications!) because of your choices?
Do you want to be among the statistics of people that REGAIN their weight?
You only get one good shot at this post op. Why make choices that you KNOW aren't good for you or not on your surgeons plan? Do you think that the surgeon made the plan up purely to torture you?
Think about this. Think about your choices post op. And then after that, its up to you to make this choice. You can eat the foods you're not cleared to because you think its ok... or you can eat the foods you're supposed to because you want to optimize your results for as long as you can!
I'm having less and less patience with this as I get further from my surgery. Are people really thinking this or are they just trolling? I'm having difficulty deciding if they REALLY wanted this healthy life or just chose surgery simply to get SKINNY.
signed (nearly) 1 year post op and lower than goal
All I have been able to reply is basically this:
Do you want to lose weight?
Do you want to keep it off?
Do you want to change your relationship with food?
Do you want to be posting about stalls (or worse complications!) because of your choices?
Do you want to be among the statistics of people that REGAIN their weight?
You only get one good shot at this post op. Why make choices that you KNOW aren't good for you or not on your surgeons plan? Do you think that the surgeon made the plan up purely to torture you?
Think about this. Think about your choices post op. And then after that, its up to you to make this choice. You can eat the foods you're not cleared to because you think its ok... or you can eat the foods you're supposed to because you want to optimize your results for as long as you can!
I'm having less and less patience with this as I get further from my surgery. Are people really thinking this or are they just trolling? I'm having difficulty deciding if they REALLY wanted this healthy life or just chose surgery simply to get SKINNY.
signed (nearly) 1 year post op and lower than goal
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