Bathroom post... don't read if you aren't interested... lol

TMI!!!!!


So....Interesting. I started the iron (half the dose recommended just to see how it was going to affect me) and instead of making me constipated, I've actually had normal bathroom times every single day since I started taking it. I haven't had a daily BM since I was on mushies after my surgery until now. I would go sometimes a week with nothing and then just rabbit turds. So far, I'm liking this iron supplementation! Giving it a few more days and then I'll move to the full 300 mg dose/day, hopefully this continues!

Doctor's orders....

Went to see my doc on Wednesday for follow up after my last blood work. I'm teetering on anemia apparently. She said the range for women is 12-300 (quite the range IMO!) and my level was 17. She said that it can cause depression, anxiety and fatigue being low in iron so that might be my problem! So, now I'm on daily iron supplementation and I have to get re-tested for blood work in 3 months and she said she wants to see it above 50 by then. I've never had iron supplements before, I hope they don't make me constipated MORE. I have enough trouble with the bathroom since my surgery!

Also, she said she didn't want me losing any more weight. She thinks my weight is fine where it is. I think I can do another 10-15 lbs and still be healthy so we'll see. I told her that I feel pretty good, other than fatigue mostly. My anxiety is up and down depending on stress. I don't handle stress well and find myself easily overwhelmed. She wants me to really focus on getting my exercise in which will also help with all of the mood and fatigue too. I know I need to exercise, and actually I have a trainer that called me so I will get going on that too.

At long last...

My pictures from the "during" weight loss phase of my photoshoot done when I was 50 lbs down.  So around 175 lbs.  I'll have another shoot when I'm at my Ultimate ultimate size :)

I can definitely see that I'm thinner now.  I'm not a huge fan of the makeup either.  It looks cakey IMO.

Lots of the same pics over in different poses... sorry!

http://photobucket.com/cherylscott

151 lbs!!!

The lightest I've been in over 15 years!  I really didn't think the scale would be showing a loss as I've been hovering over the same few pounds for a few weeks... and I've been having some issues in the bathroom..TMI I know!

I'm so happy I had this surgery.  Best decision ever.

Today, I'm going to work the Health & Lifestyle Show for Weight Loss and Beyond.  I'm a little nervous someone I work with will see me and find out I've had the surgery.  I'm still keeping that on the down low at work.  It's a hard line between wanting to tell people I know and keeping some personal privacy as well.

Last night was my company Christmas Party.  I rocked a sweet dress...

Wahoooooo!

We got the phone call this morning! We have a year extension from the military for our final move!!! That takes a HUGE load of stress and time constraint off of us. We felt very pressured to make a decision and get the move going regardless of the issues with selling our houses, now we have some leeway. A whole years worth!!

The plan now is to move to Vancouver around the summer time or early fall. By then we will be able to LEISURELY sell both houses (although that's a WHOLE OTHER source of stress for me right now), have our house hunting trip and move at the nicest time of the year. It feels so much better knowing that we have that extension.

I'm looking forward to moving to Vancouver. Hubby thinks he's forcing me to move but honestly, I'm ready for the change. The adventure. The no snow. lol

Now we need to call Relocation Services to find out how early we should be looking for a summer/fall move there so we can use those dates to work backwards to selling the place we're in now, getting my transfer done at work... etc.

It's exciting and nerve wracking all at the same time. I am going back to the doc on Wednesday to find a new anti-depressant/anti-anxiety med though I think. There's been so much stress and I'm not dealing with it well. I constantly worry, over prepare and think catastrophically about everything. It's not good for me or my marriage.

Weightloss has slowed right down.

I would say I'm averaging about 2-5 lbs a month now as I get nearer to my goal.

First major goal is 149lbs, next Ultimate goal is 135 lbs

I'm sure if I got off my ass and started exercising that might happen a little sooner but ...meh. I have no desire and I really need to find some because I know that I've lost alot of lean muscle over the last year. I can feel it in my strength.

NSV!

I've hopped on the scale a few times in the last week because I'd noticed my Size 8's getting loose.  Looks like I'm on to Size 6 now!  Also.... I can wear knee high boots.  WITH ROOM TO SPARE!  No acrobatics to get into or out of boots that previously would have taken up shop at my cankle and refuse to move an inch further. 

I'm also nearly "NORMAL" for my BMI!

Nov 11... Remember to Remember

Things have been hectic

I'm seriously slacking lately on this blog and really all of the places with my online presence.  I didn't even do my 6 month weigh in and measure.  I haven't weighed in a couple of weeks.  I have really no desire to step on the scale at all.  I might be up, I might be down... I just don't give a crap frankly.  My clothing is all hanging off me so its a good thing I think. 

My mother in law has been in town a week now and she's going to be here another week yet.  It's not that I mind her staying with us but I feel out of place in my own home when we have guests.  I feel that I have to always check on them, entertain them, not just veg out in front of the tv... A couple of weeks is a long time to feel displaced in your own space.

As well, we own a rental property.  Our renters bailed on their lease and are exiting it early.  Now we are in a mad dash panic to get the minor cosmetic repairs done and get the place sold before the end of the year.  Not easy to do in the land of perpetual cold and winter.  Siding a shed in near freezing temperatures sucks the big one.

I feel stressed out at work lately.  Some days I think that I'm pretty damn good at my job.  Other days, I can't believe they pay me to do this when I clearly have no freaking idea what I'm doing.  It's a battle with my own insecurities of being good enough.  I'm the type of person always looking for approval.  I don't know why.  Maybe it was my lack of a real father figure growing up.  Maybe it was living in fear from an abusive step father that beat my mom all the time.  Maybe I'm just a needy person because I just AM and its not a product of my environment.

The deadline to move to Vancouver is ever quickly approaching.  I think I have resigned myself that we're definitely moving there but it stresses me out with all the things we need to do between now and March to make that happen.  We have 2 homes to sell, a new home to find, and then getting my transfer and actually MOVING to a new province, new city... I've never lived anywhere other than where I grew up.  It is stressful and exciting all at once.  This opportunity to have our move paid by the Canadian Military won't come up again so we need to capitalize on it while we can.  I just wish we had a little more time....

Lastly, I've been fighting this cold/flu that's running through my office for the last week or so.  I've been absolutely exhausted with a sore throat on and off the whole time.  I wish I didn't give a crap about my job and more about my own health so I would take a sick day.  There's just so much to do.

Anyway, there's more but I feel like I'm just whining now so I'll end with a ... HAPPY FRIDAY TO EVERYONE!!!

I really like this blog and I think you should read it.

It's about weight loss.  Not WLS.  Just weight loss.  Read all 3 parts.  I think this girl is amazing.


http://www.canyoustayfordinner.com/what-i-miss-from-135lbs-ago/