grrr

I thankfully didn't let a jerkazz trainer ruin my resolve tonight.

A new trainer called me last night to book me in for a free session with him to see if I wanted to continue my training sessions with him.  We confirmed that we'd meet at the training desk at 6pm tonight.

At 615 I went down to the main desk and basically said...  should I expect Chris (trainer)  to be late for every training session I pay him for since he couldn't make it to this one, the FIRST one with a new client?

The girl at the desk advised me that he'd called in that he wouldn't be in.  WTF... and why the hell did he not think that perhaps ME as the client he went to the point of calling at home last night MIGHT need to know so I wasn't driving like a crazy person to get there on time just to find out I didn't have to????

I was fuming.  As I recall it, I'm fuming again.  One thing that makes me so so so angry is having someone waste my time.  He had the time to call the gym but not to call his client?  I'm sorry but I don't give a shit... someone could have called me.  My old trainer would have, I expect the same from the new trainer.

I was mad enough that I nearly cancelled my gym membership then and there.   I decided to instead of leaving while angry (which would be my normal response) I worked some of my anger off on the treadmill for a half hour.  I felt better after although I'm no less ready to fire his ass.  I don't know yet what I will do.  He's broken my trust already and I need to be able to trust him to have him as my trainer. 

I don't know yet whether I will continue to train with him after this.  I welcome any levity, authors of common sense or general tomfoolery.

For the scale addict in all of us

I found this... somewhere. I can't remember where. Hopefully it wasn't here on a friends blogger feed because I'll feel like an idiot but my memory is shit lately.

Anyway I think they're great articles about scale addiction and how (literally) the same person looks like at the same weight with and without exercise.

It's the sole reason I'm back at the gym.

http://primitivestimulus.com/2011/03...scale-addicts/

http://everydaypaleo.com/2011/06/22/...ddicts-part-2/

The time has come

I have an appt with a new trainer.  TONIGHT.

No point in putting it off any longer.  I NEED to get moving and I need the motivation a trainer provides me because I have none.  As I near the weight I was a year ago before I regained it all again, I realize the differences in my body this time around.   Last time I was working out like crazy and pumping weights and it showed.  I was lean and super tight and sexay... now, I'm loose and jiggly at nearly the same weight.

Time to get some of my muscle back.  I remember this path from once before.  It's a painful one but one full of self worth and accomplishment.  And I'm worth it.