I'm seriously slacking lately on this blog and really all of the places with my online presence. I didn't even do my 6 month weigh in and measure. I haven't weighed in a couple of weeks. I have really no desire to step on the scale at all. I might be up, I might be down... I just don't give a crap frankly. My clothing is all hanging off me so its a good thing I think.
My mother in law has been in town a week now and she's going to be here another week yet. It's not that I mind her staying with us but I feel out of place in my own home when we have guests. I feel that I have to always check on them, entertain them, not just veg out in front of the tv... A couple of weeks is a long time to feel displaced in your own space.
As well, we own a rental property. Our renters bailed on their lease and are exiting it early. Now we are in a mad dash panic to get the minor cosmetic repairs done and get the place sold before the end of the year. Not easy to do in the land of perpetual cold and winter. Siding a shed in near freezing temperatures sucks the big one.
I feel stressed out at work lately. Some days I think that I'm pretty damn good at my job. Other days, I can't believe they pay me to do this when I clearly have no freaking idea what I'm doing. It's a battle with my own insecurities of being good enough. I'm the type of person always looking for approval. I don't know why. Maybe it was my lack of a real father figure growing up. Maybe it was living in fear from an abusive step father that beat my mom all the time. Maybe I'm just a needy person because I just AM and its not a product of my environment.
The deadline to move to Vancouver is ever quickly approaching. I think I have resigned myself that we're definitely moving there but it stresses me out with all the things we need to do between now and March to make that happen. We have 2 homes to sell, a new home to find, and then getting my transfer and actually MOVING to a new province, new city... I've never lived anywhere other than where I grew up. It is stressful and exciting all at once. This opportunity to have our move paid by the Canadian Military won't come up again so we need to capitalize on it while we can. I just wish we had a little more time....
Lastly, I've been fighting this cold/flu that's running through my office for the last week or so. I've been absolutely exhausted with a sore throat on and off the whole time. I wish I didn't give a crap about my job and more about my own health so I would take a sick day. There's just so much to do.
Anyway, there's more but I feel like I'm just whining now so I'll end with a ... HAPPY FRIDAY TO EVERYONE!!!
