Incisions

New pics of my 1 month along incisions starting to heal!

Weight Wise

Good news.  I received notice back from the weight wise program that I will still qualify to attend all of the sessions and stuff they offer other than the bariatric surgery side (since I've already done that!).
I will have access to nutritionists, dieticians, phsycial trainers, psych nurses for weight management... I'm glad.

I start the modules on June 23.  :)


http://www.capitalhealth.ca/EspeciallyFor/WeightWise/default.htm

Pictures

I don't have many of them of me as a fatty.  It's amazing how well I hid from the camera so it wouldn't be immortalized forever at how heavy I really was.  I was looking through pictures for a wedding I was at in Punta Cana at the beginning of April this year.... I think I was in a total of 4 pictures.  On purpose.  I hated how I looked.  And I hated more how I looked because all of the rest of the women were so slim and shapely.  I just wanted to hide in our room the whole trip because of my weight.  That makes me sad that I let my weight affect me having a good time with our friends and enjoying a wedding in a beautiful place.

Exercise

Finally.  This past week I've gotten some exercise in.  I went to the gym once and walked on the treadmill for 30 min at 2.7mph.  I felt pretty good when I got off.  A little dizzy, hips were a little sore but otherwise felt good.
Went for a walk with a fellow sleever last night for another 1/2 hour and the last couple of days I've been doing the train to and from work which has a bit of a walk up and down 2x/day.

Pretty tired today but overall feeling pretty good.  I think the tiredness is also due to getting sick earlier today.

I puked at work

Mindlessly eating has been my downfall today.   It's not that I ate something bad for me.  Or that I ate too much.  I had a mini pita pocket with a few slices of deli meat in it.  I ate 1/3 of it.  But I ate it while reading.  I didn't chew like I needed to, I didn't take tiny bites like I normally do.  I took larger than normal bites, I chewed it a few times and gulped it down. 

Then it sat there right at the middle of my ribcage like a searing hot poker.  I massaged it there.  Sometimes that works.  I've learned in the past that drinking definitely does NOT help so I didn't go there.  2 minutes.

I barely got "can you watch my stuff" out of my mouth before I was running.  Its amazing how far the bathroom is when its an emergency.  I emptied my poor lil sleevie into the porcelain god and stood there spitting like crazy.  Those damn slimies that accompany this episode of stupidity to remind me that I did it to myself....

Thank everything that is worth anything... no one came into the bathroom and witnessed me voiding my stomach contents.  I would have been the talk of the office for months that I *must* be pregnant! 

fish, religion and jello

Candied Salmon.

MANNA FROM HEAVEN.

I'm telling you.  It's the best thing sinced sliced bread (I don't eat bread), since Jesus wore sandals (I'm not religious), since indoor plumbing (thank God... wait I'm not religious),  since jello. Yes.  The best thing since Jello.  But jello is one of those enigmas to me.  I CANNOT make it without that nasty hard shell it gets on the top and bottom from too much gelatin in the same area.  I don't get why other people can make jello and it turns out with the yummy jelliness goodness throughout.  Ah... jello shots.  That must be why.  Alcohol.  Oh alcohol how I miss thee.  Alcohol and me = fatness.  Bad.

Yes today is once of those randomness days that shock me into realization that I need to learn my new "normal". The normal that doesn't involve eating.  Bizarre.