Yep, I've indulged. I've done exactly what I know I'm NOT supposed to do and eaten ice cream, drank alcohol, eaten fatty foods. And I've enjoyed every single bit of it. I'm not trying to gain weight but it is possible that it may happen. I know that the last supper/food funerals are a bad idea, it means that mentally I am treating this as a diet, not a lifestyle. Inside, I know that I'll be able to eat these types of things again someday, in moderation, and even better, I won't regain the weight when I do make these choices on occasion. I'm not sure really why I feel like I feel the need to indulge but I'm not beating myself up about it.
Tonight is my official "last supper". Easter dinner. Thankfully hubby knows how to cook good tasting foods that are healthy. We're having spaghetti squash, ground turkey, salads, mashed potatoes... etc. Healthy food, cooked in healthful ways. Are we having dessert? Yep.. but a dessert that isn't going to kill for calories... fresh strawberries, light whipping cream with strawberry shortcake.
Tomorrow will be my new fresh start. The beginning. Liquid diet only until surgery on Wednesday.
Hold me...
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