For the first time in YEARS, I took a pregnancy test. I was scared and completely in denial that I could be pregnant. Hubby had the snip a year ago but hasn't been tested so there's always a little niggle at the back of my brain that says "oh please, don't let it be this time". This month I was 8 days late. I haven't been this late in a long time and so I began to worry. Bestie tried to talk some sense into me but I alternated between panic and outright denial. I didn't want to test because I was afraid... what if it was positive? I've never ever wanted to be a mother. As a step-mom I'm happy but I never wanted to bear children myself. I couldn't imagine going through that at 35.
I bought my first First Response test in a very long time and thankfully I tested negative on Friday. I was still worried since Aunt Flo hadn't made an appearance and I wasn't feeling any of the usual signs she was on her way.... well other than extreme annoyance at hubby for minor things but I don't need Aunt Flo to help me with that ;) She showed up this morning with a vengence and as usual I went through the hating her but silently (or not so silently) cheering that she'd made an appearance at all. After a day of cramps, I loathe her again and lament loudly at being female.
Also yesterday, I reached a new low on the scale. 138lbs! Even with menstrual bloat I'm at this weight! I feel amazing and can't believe that I'm 85 lbs down and will see my goal before my 1 year surgiversary at the end of April. Heck, I will likely surpass it although I'm really determined now to put some muscle back on and get strong so maybe I'll be able to stave off any further losses on the scale.
Today, Aunt Flo and all, I met with a great lady that helped me become this healthier version of Cheryl that I get to see every day since April 2011. I met up with Colleen from Weight Loss and Beyond Consulting and spent the afternoon with her and a friend that I referred for her sleeve surgery coming up March 15! I'm super excited for her to start her sleeve journey and feel this excitement that I enjoy every day! She has a cautious and reserved attitude to this process and I know that once the pounds start to come off and she starts feeling as great as we do, she will be just as thrilled to share this journey with others. This process is about sharing your journey with others, I think its an important part of the whole thing to be able to pass on your experiences, share in the highs and lows with those that have been there and those that are considering this path. I don't regret my sleeve for a moment and I wish that I'd had the courage to share it with more people sooner than I have.
Lastly, I HIGHLY recommend you all check out this site. These gals are HILARIOUS and give so much great information for post op patient of bariatric procedures. I wish I had the time to spend watching ALL of their great videos! http://bariatrictv.com/
Great job on your low!
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