Tell me I'm being stupid

I've never worried about this before in my life. Never. I still am well within the BMI range of normal at 144lbs. I still could lose another 25 lbs and be within that range (low end of the range, but in the range). For some reason, ever since I hit my goal weight, I really feel like I should be slowing down.

I've lost another 5lbs since Dec 22. That's 5 lbs in 2 weeks. And I've been really bad at getting my protein in (my bad, I know I know) AND I've been eating poorly when I do remember to eat. I still enjoy the no hunger benefit of the surgery... the only time I get hunger, its like a weird empty feeling more than real actual hunger. Most of the time I eat because I have to remind myself to do it, or someone reminds me to.

I also don't exercise. I really haven't since my surgery. Now, I'm kind of afraid to exercise because I don't want to spur further weight loss. How messed up am I... I literally was looking up how to GAIN weight online.

I don't know. I feel like I'm still losing pretty fast considering I've already lost the majority of the weight I can lose. Suddenly I'm worried that I won't be able to stop losing weight. :S

Friend Makin Monday 2012

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!

FMM: Goals for 2012

*Focus on strength training and being able to do the simple things again ... like open a water bottle without needing to use my teeth!

*Not let stress overcome me, think logically and clearly. Let my head, not my emotions (or reactions) make my decisions for how I act.

*Allow people in. Let others care for me and let me allow them to. No shutting out/down.

Happy 2012!

2012... here we are!

Last year was a year of physical changes... this year is one of geographic! This year will mark not only our 2 year wedding anniversary but also a 1 year WLS anniversary and a complete move to another province, new job and new lifestyle.

Here's to another year of growth and finding where and who I am ready to be in my new body and new life. Adding muscle to my frame for strength and adding a sense of well being to my emotional side for balance.

My new mantra for this year... we only have 1 life, enjoy every single moment of it. Don't wait for "later, tomorrow or when I retire..." do it NOW!

Walking around in women’s underwear

Happy Holidays everyone!!

GOAL WEIGHT REACHED!!!

I hit my goal weight! 149lbs! YAY!!!!!!


I can't believe it, in some ways it feels like its been forever since my surgery but I know its only been 8 months! I would be happy to get into the 130's but if I don't, then I don't. I'm not really worrying about it. I got to the 140's.... now i just need strength training to give me back some muscles cuz I'm so weak now!

Some fun for today

A little bit of light entertainment to fill your day creatively.
Take a minute and do this. It is the cutest thing ever and how on earth it works - I can't imagine.

                               Draw A Stickman
                                Try this, it is cool and fun.
                               You won't believe what happens after you draw a stick man!!  I wish I knew how this works!!!
Click on site below                                 http://www.drawastickman.com/
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FMM

FMM: Have You Ever?

1. …traveled outside of your home country?  If so, where?  

Yup, I love to travel.  I've been to Greece, Turkey, Punta Cana and Puerto Plata (Dominican Republic), several places in USA and several places in Mexico!

2. …performed on stage in front of at least 1,000 people? If so, share some details!  

When I was a kid, I was in the choir and did the Festival of Trees performances often.  Never did get over my stage fright though!

3. …watched an episode of Jersey Shore?  

Unfortunately once.  It was a mistake I regret to this day.  That's an hour I'll never get back of my life.  It was like a train wreck, I couldn't look away.

4. …baked a cake from scratch?  If so, what’s your specialty?  

Many times.  Banana and carrot are my favs I'd say.

5. …worked in a grocery store?  

Nope.  I never ever wanted to work in the food industry in any way.

6. …dated someone who was your best friend first?  

Sort of.  Hubby and I met and tried dating for awhile and it was just the wrong time.  So we became best friends instead.  3 years later, we decided to give it another try and here we are married now 1.5 years :)

7. …made a difference in someone’s life during Christmas?  

I donate, I've worked at Santa's Anonymous wrapping presents for kids and stuff.  That's about it.

8. …been on TV?  

Yup a couple times.  Once for a troubleshooter thing because my ISP was screwing people over and they decided to interview me.  Another when I was a kid, they did a Christmas special for several families called "Yes there is a Santa Claus" as our parents were both union workers and had been on lockout for 18 months on strike.  The other unions and donations made it possible for us to have a pretty amazing Christmas for 6 kids!

9. …had cosmetic surgery?

I've had lasik surgery and weight loss surgery.  I don't really know if either are considered "cosmetic" to others so I've noted them but to me they were absolutely necessary and I wouldn't change those decisions for a second!

10. …learned a second language?  If so, what else do you speak?

All Canadians (pretty much) learn French in school.  I speak it haltingly and can understand it mostly.  I'm also teaching myself Spanish :)

Now it’s your turn.  I know it’s a busy week, but I hope you’ll take a few minutes to share your answers on your own blog.  And if you do, don’t forget to come back here to link up in the comments.  

Happy Monday friends!

My vitamin ritual

Everyday I take:

1 - B12 tablet (melts under your tongue)
2 - Vit D drops 1000iu each
2 - Adult chewable multi vitamins
Bio-Strath Liquid mineral supplement (30 drops)   http://www.nationalnutrition.ca/detail.aspx?ID=971
Calcium Magnesium Citrate liquid
1 packet - Pro-Biotics

Now I am adding 150mg 2x/day of Feramax to the mix

Bathroom post... don't read if you aren't interested... lol

TMI!!!!!


So....Interesting. I started the iron (half the dose recommended just to see how it was going to affect me) and instead of making me constipated, I've actually had normal bathroom times every single day since I started taking it. I haven't had a daily BM since I was on mushies after my surgery until now. I would go sometimes a week with nothing and then just rabbit turds. So far, I'm liking this iron supplementation! Giving it a few more days and then I'll move to the full 300 mg dose/day, hopefully this continues!

Doctor's orders....

Went to see my doc on Wednesday for follow up after my last blood work. I'm teetering on anemia apparently. She said the range for women is 12-300 (quite the range IMO!) and my level was 17. She said that it can cause depression, anxiety and fatigue being low in iron so that might be my problem! So, now I'm on daily iron supplementation and I have to get re-tested for blood work in 3 months and she said she wants to see it above 50 by then. I've never had iron supplements before, I hope they don't make me constipated MORE. I have enough trouble with the bathroom since my surgery!

Also, she said she didn't want me losing any more weight. She thinks my weight is fine where it is. I think I can do another 10-15 lbs and still be healthy so we'll see. I told her that I feel pretty good, other than fatigue mostly. My anxiety is up and down depending on stress. I don't handle stress well and find myself easily overwhelmed. She wants me to really focus on getting my exercise in which will also help with all of the mood and fatigue too. I know I need to exercise, and actually I have a trainer that called me so I will get going on that too.